31 Jan

So, a lot has happened since I last checked in.

  • My head cold moved to my chest and turned into full blown bronchitis
  • I went 8 days without running, cross training, anything.  A personal worst.  My doctor said a lot of things about “putting my overall health first” and “not trying to torture me” but it was a little hard to believe at times
  • I got really depressed about my upcoming marathon.
  • I tried to remedy this by abusing my account
  • I still didn’t feel better
  • Work sent me to Vegas for a few days, so when the work days ended and the evenings began, I threw myself a pity party or two

One heck of a pity party.


Yesterday I found myself out on a lunch time run, feeling a bit cranky about how janked my hips and shins felt, when I caught up to some co-workers out on the road.  I ran a few paces with them, and one asked me if I had any races coming up.

“Well, I’ve got a 5k this weekend,” I replied.

“A 5k? That’s peanuts.”

“Yeah well … 5ks scare me the most …”

“That’s just pressure you put on yourself, you know.”

The exchange stuck with me.  It wasn’t that long ago that I ran my first 5k, unsure if I’d even finish it.  First 10k, 15k, half marathon, full marathon?  Same story.  All the races I was just happy to finish in my first year of running.

Then somewhere along the line, I got greedy.  I dropped out of two races last year because I wasn’t pleased with what my watch said and what the effort felt like.  Abstained from registering for others because I didn’t think I was in PR shape and would’ve been disappointed with anything less.  Developed an entirely piss poor attitude towards racing, and even running itself.  You’re not going to PR every race.  There are going to be times when your legs or your lungs or your mind betray you and you will struggle to fight through it.  But it’s not the number on the clock that defines you.  Notching that PR is a great feeling, for sure.  But the trials and tribulations along the way, the effort you put into training, the people you meet while running – and racing! – and the little lessons you learn about your body, mind and spirit every time you lace up and hit the road are worth so much more.  That one little race all by itself?  That’s peanuts.


3 Responses to “Peanuts.”

  1. Cait the Arty Runnerchick January 31, 2013 at 9:49 pm #

    i’m sorry u got super sick! i just got over the flu from he## and i felt like death…of course the part i was mad about the most was run withdrawals!! lol.
    i’m the SAME way, the shorter distances scare me much more, i kno it’s because i’ve got nil fast-twitch and speed is not my forte…5k’s feel shorter and like a blitz from the gun. 😛 and don’t get me started on a mile race! hehe

    • upstaterunner February 2, 2013 at 9:02 am #

      Ugh, the flu is no fun either! Hopefully we’ve done our time and the rest of 2013 will be smooth sailing 🙂

      And yeah, it’s definitely that whole “feel like I’m sprinting the entire race” thing that intimidates me like crazy. Can’t imagine how a 1 mile race would be, but it’d probably be fun/scary to just experience at some point!


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